I had a dream a few days ago

it seems many disasters are striking around the globe
this year, I dont know if it is more than normal, but
it seems like a lot more to me

I keep wondering if a major disaster will reach any of
the people in our family, 

we have already survived many medical emergencies 

Some of my friends keep talking about the rapture, I
am not ready for all of that right now

I still feel I have much to do

I pray that we all enjoy the upcoming thanksgiving and
xmas as the end of 2005 approaches

It seems that many things could go right or wrong, but
I believe the lord will look out for our family

I had a dream where I was fighting demons, I just kept
imagining myself kicking and punching and attacking
them as I flew through the sky in my dream, they just
kept appearing and I kept fighting

Then I heard a voice say you better get used to it
His face was red and I just kept fighting

Eventually I woke up a little startled but I felt very
alive when I woke up

I thought it might be a good start for a story to
write

About a person who fights demons in his sleep while
the world is sleeping, I find that to be an
interesting topic to write about

We all have our own personal sins and demons that we
deal with each day, and I just felt empowered as I was
fighting these demons in my dream

It reminded me that we must all wear the armor of god
as we head out into the world, to protect ourselves
from the monsters out there that may try to hurt us or
do wrong to us

I was pulled over by a cop the other day, I knew I
wasnt speeding so I wondered why he stopped me. He was
a very young officer. He asked me if I was an LA
gangbanger. I was like no I am coming home from bible
study. He told me I had a broken headlight. After he
checked my insurance and license he let me go and told
me to fix my light. It reminded me of all the times
thomas was getting pulled over and harassed by cops. I
guess it was my turn to be mistaken for a criminal
problably because I was a minority driving alone on a
highway in orange county in brea.
It was late at night, but still he did not have to say
that out loud to my face. I felt very offended by that
comment.

I still wonder why the lord has not brought me into a
relationship yet. But I suppose my time will come when
it is right.

I am living with my parents right now, it is strange
after living out on my own for the last year. I
enjoyed having my own place, but it seems that I was
often home for the weekend. Especially after my dad
got sick. I feel very lucky to still have my parents
in my life. Both have some health issues and it is a
blessing to have them around. I am kind of glad to be
home right now, even though I would prefer to own my
own home and be independent again. I dont like having
to rely on my folks. But it is allowing me to change
careers and I am thankful for that. My education has
allowed me to try a few different occupations when I
found I was not happy. I am so glad that I am not
stuck in a job that I hate. That would drive me crazy.
I have learned to be patient and stay calm, and avoid
building up stress in my life. I have truly learned to
let go of the things I cannot change, and found the
courage and wisdom to know which battles to fight in
life.

It is a challenge each day to find a balance between
what we love to do, and what me must do to survive. I
feel they should be the same. I want to do work I am
passionate about, Because when I stop caring, I stop
doing good work. I always perform better when I
believe in the work I am doing and feel I am making an
impact on my team.

I love to sing at church, every so often the other
people in church will compliment me or thank me for
singing. I often am told that I have a beautiful
voice. Sometimes I wish I could just sing full time.
It is one area in my life where I am extremely
confident in my ability to affect another person. I
have adults and even kids come up to me after singing.
And kids are always very honest about that type of
stuff. My dad and sister also love to sing. I learned
to sing from taking piano lessons as a kid, and also
from my dad who has always been the featured singer at
our family parties. He is the ultimate sinatra and
elvis singer. Me I have taken to gospel and christian
music, as well has some r&b and reggae. My ipod has a
couple hundred songs on it, and I can sing most of
them. 

I really want to make films, but I wonder if my
talents are better suited to music. Although I know I
could combine both if I made films.

I do not know where the lord will take me in 2006, but
I pray that he finds it good to bless me this year. I
would love to sell enough real estate to pay my debts,
and invest in a home, as well as have some funds to
donate to charities.

I know the lord has a plan for me, it just seems it
has taken a long time to develop. I guess some recipes
require longer preparation before they become a feast.

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